Losing Motivation :(

I think I must be pmsing this week!  I am cranky and everything I hear and read grinds on my gears.

I think I must be under a lot more stress than I think.  I need a vacation!

I am losing motivation with my weight loss.

And though I went in to see my JC consultant.  There is no facade with her.  I tell her exactly what is going on with me.  I am completely honest with her.  It is such a relief.  I don't have to fake anything.  If I am feeling like shit...I tell her.  I don't have to put on a brave face.  I feel like I am constantly walking through life with a brave face!  Fake a smile for my epicure team.  Fake a smile for my family.  Fake a smile for each of the executive I sit on.  Fake a smile for my fellow leaders.  Fake a smile for my boss.  I just feel like a have to fake it all the time.  That there isn't any toleration for the real me.

What does this mean?

Does it perhaps mean I am surrounding myself with the wrong people?

Does it mean that I have a misunderstanding of what ppl expect of me?

Am I having a mid life crisis?

Do I not fit in with my co workers and friends anymore?

I have so many questions going through my head these days.  Maybe I am more stressed than I think I am.

*sigh*

Oh well it is another week.

The plus is I was down 1.3.  Hopefully I can figure out my head and get re motivated.  Go up on the scale will not help my funk.

Until next week.

TM

See you later 230's!!!

Woot! I went into today's weigh in expecting to be up on the scale.

You see I have been sick for the last 4 days and not following my meal plan 100%.

And I missed zumba last week, and haven't done any exercise.

Plus my comfort when I am sick is warmed ice tea mix with lemon juice. It's kinda like

a neo citron, but with out the medication. And it is full of sugar.

So I really didn't think I had any chance of losing this week.

I am pleased to say that some how I am down 1.7! YAY me!

So what that means is bye bye 230s!!!!! I am really excited about this! That means 30 lbs lost in 3 months. This is a big celebration for me.

I am starting a new round of the biggest loser challenge. It is a 12 week challenge, and my goal is to lose 30 lbs in the 12 weeks. That is 2.5 a week. I know this is a lofty goal, but I feel pretty confident that I can do it.

Here's to another great week!

Cheers

TM

Disappointed?

Last week was a big week! It was Easter weekend. Yikes!!

Lucky for me, I am not a huge chocolate fan. Yeah that's right...I said it!

But I was planning on having a family dinner, and partaking of the "normal" food.

Thursday I attended my regular weekly rumba class.

Sunday, my family started Geo Caching. If you are not familiar with Geo Caching, I highly recommend checking it out. So fun! You can find information at www.geocaching.com

You can also follow my families adventures and partake in this new fun adventure. OUr family blog is here

Sunday night was easter dinner. I was proud of the decisions I made. I treated myself to a carrot cake muffin with cream cheese icing. I was smart on the portion size. and I didn't go back for seconds. I was satisfied and happy to share a special meal with my family.

Monday we decided to go out geo caching again. We were gone for 3.5 hours and hiked approximately 10km. Boy was a sore last night!

I had a feeling going into this mornings weigh in that I was not going to be happy with the #. I was really striving to see the 220s. And though, my muscle were hurting, and that means water retention. But I was hopeful.

Sure enough, when weighing in, I didn't get below 230 :(. I was visibly upset, but my consultant reminded me that more than a 2 lbs loss on easter weekend would be next to impossible.

So I will take it. And work towards hitting the 220s next week.

I will be starting a new round of Biggest loser challenge next week too. The last challenge ended a week or so ago and I placed 5th. Not where I wanted to be. But I will take it. Aiming to win it this time around! My goal is to lose 30 lbs during the 12 week challenge.

Here is my before picture for the challenge - note: no makeup or shower before this pic. I cannot believe I am posting it here. I must really be committed to change!

Have a great week all!

Last week Blech! This week Woo hoo!

Last week was a yucky week for me. The scale was not kind and I only lost 0.1.

And though, I put it behind me and moved on to the next week.

There were MANY temptations last week.

First, my youngest volunteered me to bake cupcakes for hi

s music class.

Much to my dismay I made some super yummy cupcakes.

My huge WIN for the week was Thursday night.

The cupcakes had been calling to me all day long. About 8pm I ventured from my bed room, and ask my husband if he would finish a cupcake if I took just 1 bite. He said sure. My husband never turns down sweets. I walked over to the cupcake holder, picked the glass top off...it felt like it weighed 100 lbs. I stood there for a moment, and then gently placed the lid back on the container, and walked away. I decided one bite of cupcake wouldn't be enough for me. I would want more. And more wasn't an option. So I walked away! Yay me!

Wanna know how hard that was? Take a look at my cupcakes......they bring ALL the boys to the yard!

Friday night I went out with the girls to see The Hunger Games. I knew going in that I was going to allow myself popcorn and a coke. I LOVE Coke!! I haven't had coke in 3 months!!! So I treated myself to a bag of buttered popcorn and coke. My win was that I didn't feel guilty, and when I was full of popcorn, I passed the unfinished bag to my son. I had prepared myself, by not eating some of my JC snacks that day.

Sunday was a rough day as I had my epicure open house. I was busy from the moment I opened my eyes, until about 6pm. So I didn't follow my menu very well. I believe I missed breakfast. I snacked through out the day. But I made sure I ate my JC lunch and dinner. In the end I think it balanced out.

I was a little nervous going into weigh in today b/c of Friday night and Sunday. But I was willing to accept what ever happened. I was down 4 pounds!! WOW! I am pleasantly surprised, and I think my JC consultant was too!

I am still doing zumba every thursday. And I will continue to do so. I love it now!!

I would love to get the Zumba game for my xbox, but money is pretty tight around here. And $160 a week for jenny craig is tough. But I am committed to this journey, and if I have to cut other financial things out, then that is the sacrifice I will make.

I am over 1/4 complete of my journey. Still a long ways to go. But baby steps.

Thanks for everyone who is cheering me on! I truly appreciate it :)

Have a great week everyone!

TM

Great Week!

I am pretty happy with the last week :)

When I met with my JC consultant last week, I expressed my growing craving for Mary Brown's Chicken. I knew that this craving would continue to eat at me (pun intended) if I didn't do something about it.

So we planned into my menu for me to treat myself that night.

At dinner, it was nice to sit down with my family and have a treat. I was smart about it. I took a piece of chicken and some fries with gravy. Finished them. Waited. And was not feeling full. So I had another piece of chicken. I waited, and still didn't feel full. So I had a third piece of chicken. In the end I didn't feel guilty eating 3 pieces of chicken. I didn't feel over stuffed. I was happy with my decision. I made sure to drink a lot of water the next couple of days. To prevent retaining water from the food. I am happy that I allowed myself this treat. I then moved on, and followed my JC menu for the rest of the week. No regrets, and no more cravings.

Thursday was back to Zumba. The week before there wasn't a class, so I was feeling a little nervous about starting again. We were starting a new session, so I was a little nervous about that too. I was soo excited that when we started up I felt confident, a little more sure of myself, and I didn't feel like I was going to keel over and die! What a HUGE accomplishment! I am really enjoying zumba now!! I think after this set, I might just be ready to take a class instructed by my dear sweet friend Zumba Ren! I know she will be an awesomely fun instructor!!

I also had a very nice compliment from a fellow zumba surviver. After class she came up to me and said "wow! you are looking thinner thinner each week". What a beautiful thing to hear from an almost stranger!

This week we are having dinner at friends. I am feeling pretty confident that I can make good decisions and still stay on track.

I am looking forward to saying good to the 230's!! Don't think I will make that goal this week, but I am certainly going to try :)

Have a great week everyone!

Love

TM

20lbs gone...Finally!!!

Well it took a bit longer than I wanted, but I finally hit the 20lb mark!

Goodbye 250's and 240's!!

Not going to see you guys again.

I am slower adding more and more activity into my life.

I have begun walking on the treadmill...not regularly, but more than I was.

Trying for a good week this week.

First Month Done!

Well it's be an interesting month. Ups and downs. But in the end I am proud of what I have accomplished.

Here were the highlites and lows of the month
- I started ZUMBA. For someone who has 2 left feet, doesn't feel sexy, and it completely out of shape. This was a challenge. The first 3 classes I felt like I was going to die. The 4th classes seemed a little easier. I think I am getting the hang of it. One of our songs is LMFAO's Sexy and I know it. I am looking forward to learning this routine so I can share it with the boys. They LOVE that song!

-My cousin Matthew came to visit for a few days and we spent a day at WEM (West Edmonton Mall). That meant I needed to "eat out" for 2 meals in one day. I felt quite confident in my choices, and I think those contributed to me loss this week. I am not saying eating out is something you should get used to when trying to lose weight, but I am feeling confident that I can make good choices when I have to. That will serve me well this weekend when we are away from a Swim Meet.

-My family is going through some serious stressors right now. The challenges I am facing are the toughest I have ever faced. I am not dealing with it the best I possibly can. I know I need to ask for help, and put some things in place to take care of my own mental state...I am working on it. However, I haven't fallen completely apart yet - this is the saving grace right now. I never know what the next hour will bring. I am taking things minute by minute. As I type this blog I receive a text message from my 12 year old at school. I am trying to breathe, and not freak out. Need to book a massage!

-I have a great support system of friends who are cheering me on. This comforts me daily.

-I have accepted that set back will happen. When I stumble, I remember to pick myself up, dust myself off, and move forward. There is no looking back. If you keep looking back, you will just keeping tripping.

So with those lessons learned, I move into a new month. With a fantastic weigh in today, and a loss of 3.8, it brings my total weight loss for this month to 13.8. Yay me!



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