I think I must be under a lot more stress than I think. I need a vacation!
I am losing motivation with my weight loss.
And though I went in to see my JC consultant. There is no facade with her. I tell her exactly what is going on with me. I am completely honest with her. It is such a relief. I don't have to fake anything. If I am feeling like shit...I tell her. I don't have to put on a brave face. I feel like I am constantly walking through life with a brave face! Fake a smile for my epicure team. Fake a smile for my family. Fake a smile for each of the executive I sit on. Fake a smile for my fellow leaders. Fake a smile for my boss. I just feel like a have to fake it all the time. That there isn't any toleration for the real me.
What does this mean?
Does it perhaps mean I am surrounding myself with the wrong people?
Does it mean that I have a misunderstanding of what ppl expect of me?
Am I having a mid life crisis?
Do I not fit in with my co workers and friends anymore?
I have so many questions going through my head these days. Maybe I am more stressed than I think I am.
*sigh*
Oh well it is another week.
The plus is I was down 1.3. Hopefully I can figure out my head and get re motivated. Go up on the scale will not help my funk.
Until next week.
TM
